Let me be straightforward: I’ve been struggling. I have a lot of roles right now: a work-from-home mom with an 11 month old; a Bachelor’s program student; wife to a husband who works 12 hour days six days a week. I’ve been trying to balance all of these responsibilities without getting overwhelmed, but lately I haven’t been doing so well.
I went to my weekly Bible study group yesterday, where we’re going through Matt Chandler’s Recovering Redemption series. This week, Matt reflects on John 15:1-7:
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.
Sometimes plants die and they’re just no good anymore. When that happens, you have to pull them up by the roots. When we feeling fear, shame, guilt, or anxiety, God is letting us know part of our plant needs to be pulled up. There’s something wrong, and He’s tugging at our roots to let us know.
I’ve been feeling a lot of tugging lately. My faith has been tested lately, and I’ve been relying too heavily on myself and not enough on God. So today, I’m setting out on a new journey to better myself as a mother, wife, student; an all-around better person.
This blog is called Striving Momma because I’m striving–aiming, endeavoring, venturing, seeking–to be that all-around better person. You’re welcome to join me on this adventure. I’ll be sharing Bible lessons, pictures and methods of how I study the Word, information on parenting, and fun activities for toddlers. Feel free to subscribe; I promise I won’t bombard you with emails!