I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I want to do with my life and what my purpose is. I’ve had a lot of late nights, lying in bed unable to sleep because I just can’t let go of the fear and anxiety. For three years, I’ve been drawing steadily closer to earning a Bachelor’s Degree so I can become a licensed social worker. A few weeks ago, however, it dawned on me…I don’t think that’s what God is calling me to do. I wondered if it was time to take a leap of faith and figure out what my real purpose is.
I’ve been feeling something tugging at my soul these past few weeks. I no longer feel like social work is my calling. I know I have one, but I’m having a hard time figuring out what it is. I’ve been wrestling with myself over a huge decision: while I’m figuring out what my purpose is, should I continue spending close to $17,000 a year to earn my next degree? The only thing holding me back is that I’m terrified of making the wrong decision, and of essentially throwing away all the progress I’ve made these past few years.
Last night, I was lying in bed praying fervently to God to guide me in making the right decision. I asked Him to help me feel peace about whatever choice I made, and requested that He help me discover my purpose. This morning, I woke up finally feeling calm. I still don’t know for sure what my purpose is yet, but I have an inkling of what it might be. And I was right: it isn’t social work. God is calling me to do something else, and He’s demanding that I take a leap of faith to do it.
I’ve said before that I’m a micromanager: it’s hard for me to be calm when I don’t know exactly what’s going to happen, when. I like having everything planned out to the smallest detail. Now, God is telling me I have to give that up and trust in Him. He’s making me accept the fact that I don’t have control over everything, and I have to be okay with that.
Putting your Faith in the Lord
I’ll be honest: sometimes I have a hard time giving up control and relying completely on faith. It’s a huge flaw of mine, but I’ve been working hard on trying to do better. Luckily, the Bible has several passages regarding faith and trust in the Lord:
- Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
- If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.
- Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.
- He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
- For we live by faith, not by sight.
-2 Corinthians 5:7
- Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong.
-1 Corinthians 16:13
- Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. -Hebrews 11:1 @StrivingMomma
Overcoming Doubt and Fear
Even when I do try to give my wish for control over to God, I still experience fear. I become afraid that something will go wrong, or I won’t know how to deal with whatever happens. I doubt myself, and although I hate to admit it, that means I’m doubting God. Fortunately, I know I’m not alone in this; the Bible addresses it numerous times. Here are a few that I like to meditate on:
- When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy.
- Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
- “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
- The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid?
- So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
- Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
- Even though I walk through the darkest valley,I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
-1 Peter 5:6-7
- For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.
-2 Timothy 1:7
The LORD is my light and my salvation— whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life— of whom shall I be afraid? -Psalm 27:1 @StrivingMomma
Finding Your Purpose
It isn’t easy not knowing what you want to do with your life. Knowing you aren’t alone in that makes it a little easier, though; the Bible is filled with people who doubted God. Just look at Thomas, Gideon, Sarah, and Abraham! Ultimately, we have to learn to give our fears and doubts over to God, and trust in Him to guide us. He won’t lead us astray.
If you’ve struggled with with doubt, fear, and finding your purpose (or are right now), please share your journey below! Also, don’t forget to download your two free graphics from the freebies page (just subscribe to my newsletter to get the password: 10 Bible Verses for Having Faith in the Lord and 10 Bible Verses for Overcoming Fear!